BEHIND THE LENS
For one minute, I walk outside, I stand there in silence, I look up at the sky, and contemplate how amazing life is...
I close my eyes, take a deep breath, then exhale. You feel that? Way down deep inside. It's a insatiable craving.. That feeling of nervousness and anxiety at the same time. Im so excited and full of energy I can hardly sit still but I must wait. Wait for my turn to be called to my position.... Have you ever wanted to be someone else for a day? Walk in their shoes, talk how they would talk, embody whom ever they are entirely?
All my life I've dreamt about this moment. Going over the scenes in my head over and over again. Reciting those lines until they become a part of my own DNA. Doubts, insecurities and second guesses try to creep in, am I good enough? What if they don't like it? I quickly remove those unwanted thoughts. All I can do is focus. Ive been waiting for this, this is the scene I've seen in my dreams repeatedly nights on end. Everything seems so familiar.
Huge hot lights blare on the top of my head above me. Someone sets a make shift marker at my feet of duct tape to make sure I stay in place. I hear a voice from the distance telling me "Start from the top this time, I need you to give me more truth!" Voices echo in the background as loud as they can "QUITE ON THE SET!!!". I find myself staring inside of this huge glass lens which also serves as a mirror to my reflection sitting on top of a dolly and track which gently glides with grace from feet away to arms reach of my face. My heart is beating out of my chest. My palms are sweaty. There's a brief silence and blanket of peace... I am no longer Donnis Draper, I am now in character. This is now my defining moment. And finally, all I hear is God's voice say "ACTION!!!" And at that very moment I realized there was never anything to fear or be afraid of.. There was no room for second guesses nor doubts... All there was, was me and destiny AND I WAS MADE FOR THIS VERY MOMENT!!!
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